You may be distracted numerous times. And perhaps your entire practice will be full of sensations clamoring for attention (like monkeys in a banana tree). These distractions are YOU in the Flesh. Be abhorred, you are being judged, Cross examined, and being given full disclosure of your own “moral” inventory.
It is the cry of seeing your “self” which is soul shattering. When we do we are reminded of others (Peter, Isaiah, Paul, Joshua, Moses) who cried out, I am undone. I am unclean, I am blind, I am a sinful man, etc.
Contemplation is truly an exercise in humility! But each interruption is yet another opportunity to return to Presence.
His presence is what saves me from my “self”… the worst possible version of my self. The self that we hide from others and stay distracted from by our own busy and noisy lives.
His presence is what lures me away from my self and continually washes me, heals me, creates in me a clean heart and renews a right spirit.
His presence makes me aware of grace that is greater than my sin, mercy that mends and repairs me thoroughly and when I exhale and return to life I am immeasurably more authentic about my real self and more compassionate towards your “self”.